my adorable niece bella turned one on sunday and we had a party to celebrate the day before. let's just state the facts, my brother brad has BEAUTIFUL children. even though gabi and bella look totally different they are each in their own right totally and utterly gorgeous children.
bella had a butterfly themed water party and i think its been one of the most successful birthday parties to date. all of the cousins had a delightful time splashing around in the pool, sliding down the slip-n-slide, and getting their faces painted by vanessa.
as i said, these 2 people make stunning children and should possibly consider being surrogate parents for the rich and famous that want beautiful children.
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ok... so not to take away from sweet bella, i just have to vent a bit.
seeing bella turn 1 and be walking is really hard for me. i am so glad that bella is walking and normal and beautiful but i want that for greta too. do not get me wrong when i say, i am grateful EVERY single day that greta is where she is and that she is here for me to love BUT sometimes it just gets me down. i hate that all of her younger cousins thus far will probably be walking or even crawling before her, including poppy who will be 1 in november. i hate that we go places and people are stunned when i say she is 1 because she does not do most things that 1 year olds do. i hate that having the strength to crawl or stand is so hard for greta. i hate that she doesn't get to be "normal" developmentally right now. most of all i hate that i have a hard time with it. i want this to be something that i can be okay with. i am working on being okay with it, sometimes i am, sometimes i forget but its really hard to forget and be okay when i see babies much younger than greta hitting milestones so far ahead of grets. its just hard... hard for me, i am working on acceptance and gratitude.
i guess i will just have to live with her being totally adorable. i think i can manage that.
enjoy.
11 comments:
Don't ever feel bad for how you feel. I've found that to be the hardest part. There are three kids in the neighborhood born within a month of Maisy and when I see them playing together it hurts my heart. Things will always be different and sometimes that's okay and sometimes it's not.
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I know how you feel, but for me, i'm so grateful to see her where she's at after all that she's gone through. remember when they told us she wouldn't ever walk or crawl??? she's not done yet and all we can do is look at the past at where she's come from and look forward to her future. she's the most amazing girl and i'm so glad she's ours!! be proud of her, she deserves it!! she'll get there. i love you.
Greta is beautiful! I can't imagine the daily struggles and the struggle with the struggles...if that makes sense. Hang in there - she looks like she is doing great and your honesty is always so refreshing.
I know it's hard for you...but Grets continues to prove us all wrong. Her story is far from over...let's see where she takes us! And BTW...she is the most amazingly happy and lovable girl I know. XOXOXO
P.S. Ditto on the gorgeousness of the Williams girls. Agreed...Brad and Vanessa could make a fortune if they could clone their offspring!
i have nothing new to add.. but i just felt like saying something.
and i know you know this..
but greta is perfect. she is our grets.. she lights up the room, and i just love her. and her entire family for that matter.
pretzel=perfection
It sucks to compare your kids to other people's. There is always something their kids can do better than yours. But, you just have to remember that each baby is their own person with their own timetable. She will hit those milestones when SHE is ready to hit them.
And, let's not forget she is the cutest thing ever!!
Trevan's comment precious and so true. Don't ever think you can't feel the way you do. You can't help it it is natural. You handle things better than anyone I know. Greta has a great life ahead of her I am sure with lots of suprises.
Kennan- dont worry about things like that. No kid is alike. You are an amazing person and super fun to be around. Greta will be on her on path to growing up and she will turn out fine! Soon she will be a Wonderwoman just like you! (I miss ya at work! Work with me!)
Hey, she will get there! Her progress proves it! Hurray for the children who walk at 26 months! It is worth the wait, and I think it makes their personality develop like crazy, since they can't move around much, and they are all the cuter for it! Hang in there!
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