Round 9: Jude vs. Pulse Dye Laser

here we are again... is it getting to be as repetitive for you as it is for me?

jude went in today for his 9th laser surgery today. its the same exact thing every time, same doctors(different anesthesiologist), same nurses, same crying, same smell, same burnt hair, and same darling boy. the only different thing is that this time the lasered inside his mouth (ouch!) because dr. vanderhooft saw some darkening on his inner lower lip. jude is getting smarter with age (imagine that) and knows now what is going on. he knows that when we walk into that hospital he is going to leave in tears. he knows what and where is birthmark is now.

last night was harder for me than today. last night was the first time that while recieving a blessing from trev that i didn't hold him. he sat there like a big boy and silently mouthed ï love you" to me as i watched (not joking). last night we discussed his birthmark, jude and i. our discussion went like this...

me
"jude, greta is sleeping at yaya's tonight because tomorrow we have to go to a special doctor's appointment for you"

jude
"we go get my birthmark away tomorrow?"

me
"yes, baby but it will be okay."

jude
"okay momma. we go get 'jabba da hut' after my birthmark go away tomorrow?"

me
"we'll sure try buddy."

jude
"momma, i no like my birthmark tomorrow"

me
"me either buddy but you'll be okay, i promise."(tears)

and it was okay. now we just have to wait for it to heal and hopefully it lightens enough that we never have to back there again or at least as often.

luckily, jude's star wars "chubbie guys" were there to see him through.

until next time.......